It’s easy to surrender to my circumstances and admit defeat. But I can’t help hoping for a cure for my multiple sclerosis, writes Sheri Astorino
This translation has been automatically generated and has not been verified for accuracy.First Person is a daily personal piece submitted by readers. Have a story to tell? See our guidelines atAs I was slipping out of my wheelchair one day, gracefully you know, I shouted: “Back off universe, not today! I will not call the paramedics today.” I rejected every self-help book I’d purchased over the years that told me to accept my fate and gave the universe the finger.
I don’t know if all this self-help crap is working, but I keep doing it. I hate it when I tell people “my body is healing, my body is getting stronger,” and they look at me with a forlorn expression. They buy into the notion that there is no cure for MS because that’s what the doctors say. Why can’t they just play along?, by Jewel, has always resonated with me: “I won’t be made useless/ I won’t be idled with despair/ I will gather myself around my faith/ for light does the darkness most fear.
I do not want to own this disease. It is horrible and debilitating and it makes you feel humiliated all the time. I guess I’ve learned how to feel humbled and how to accept a lot of help. I’ve also learned I have to be resilient. You don’t learn to bounce back unless you’ve been given a real challenge. You don’t know how strong you are unless you’re dangling from a rope and need to drag yourself back up.
And therein lies the problem. I have to stop chasing a potential cure, I have to surrender to what is. I hate it when the universe is right. Thank you universe and I’m sorry for flipping you the bird earlier.
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